As I sit down to reflect on my journey, I am filled with a sense of empowerment and liberation. The decision to undergo permanent sterilization, to have my tubes tied, was not one that I took lightly. It was a deeply personal choice, rooted in my desire for autonomy over my own body and my reproductive future.
For years (since childhood), I have known it was right for my life, but often societal expectations made me question that. Society often paints motherhood as the ultimate fulfillment for women, and the pressure to conform to this expectation can be overwhelming. But for me, motherhood was never a goal I felt compelled to pursue. The idea of pregnancy truly makes me uncomfortable in regards to my own body and I love the career and life I have built. I knew deep within myself that I did not want to have children, and I have felt a sense of peace and clarity with this step.
However, even as I embraced my decision, I encountered resistance from others who questioned my choice. I was met with judgment, disbelief, and even criticism. Some questioned whether I would regret my decision later in life, while others tried to convince me that I would change my mind.
I am so incredibly thankful for my mom and my doctor, who both provided a source of strength and encouragement. They reminded me that my worth as a woman was not tied to my ability or desire to bear children, and they celebrated my decision to take control of my reproductive future.
And so, we scheduled it. We needed to schedule a diagnostic laparoscopy and it made sense to simply do it all at the same time as the same ports were required.
After thorough discussions and evaluations, I underwent the tubal ligation. The experience itself was relatively straightforward, but the emotional journey leading up to it had it's moments. Moments knowing I knew it was right for me, but still processing the permanence.
The day was simple. We went to the hospital, within a few hours I was in anesthesia and shortly waking up with the procedure completed.
A matter of hours have provided me with an incredible sense of freedom. I no longer have to worry about unwanted pregnancies or being forced into something that I know is not meant for my life. I am able to fully embrace my life and pursue my goals without the fear of unexpected parenthood looming over me.
I cannot speak on the healing process for this procedure solely, as I underwent other surgical procedures at the same time. The first week I was in quite a bit of pain, but manageable enough to survive on Motrin 800s. Most women I talked to prior to having the surgery said their healing was 3-5 days. Mine was longer, but again, other procedures were done and have required healing.
Choosing permanent sterilization was not a decision I made lightly, but it was the right decision for me. It was a decision rooted in self-awareness, autonomy, and empowerment. And while society may still struggle to understand and accept it, I am proud to have taken control of my reproductive future on my own terms.
To anyone out there who may be considering permanent sterilization, I urge you to trust yourself and your instincts. Your body belongs to you, and you alone have the right to make decisions about it. Surround yourself with supportive loved ones, seek out healthcare providers who respect your autonomy, and never let anyone else dictate the course of your life.
